so this post is about the observed strange side effects of my hodgkins at this stage
number one is the indigestion. today it is my fault, as it was sunny and i felt it necessary to kill the taste of the sub-par chinese recently ingested (due to green bo being full and having to go to moon house instead) with some delicious chinatown ice cream factory ice cream. when will i learn? never! but really i get indigestion all the time now even when i eat well. It is much worse when i am on "the week" but even on the off week it is still annoying. perhaps i will go and purchase more upset stomach/heartburn products... the maalox and tums aren't cutting it. I guess i can ask the nurses for some type of pill but i feel that i already have so much strong medicine coursing thru me in chase of cancer hounds that i hesitate to add more. Which brings us to
point two-
excessive uptightness. I have detected a more anal streak coming to rise. i don't know if that is the absence of liquor in my diet or age creeping up or whatever, but i catch myself being a lot more uppity lately. sometimes it is things like fretting over work not done yet; needing an item and having to go buy it RIGHT NOW; getting really hungry and ornery; or sometimes it is being at someones house and they have a bunch of dishes in the sink and i get pissed off and just start washing them. "oh yeah, come to my house" you would say but to me it is a little scary as i have never had this feeling before- i have to think it is some sort of side effect of the chemo. should start taking antidepressants? some type of herbal concoction? the thing is that i don't like directly being beholden to someTHING to change my mood be it pill or herb, which is specifically why i have not told the docs: i don't want yet another pill/drug coursing thru me, pulling me yet another direction. so what then? meditation? aerobic exercise? breathing exercise? acupuncture? i don't know... i just hope i am not annoying anyone with it.
point three-
voices in the head
this only happens in the first three days of chemo, when "anything goes" anyway so i'm not worried about it. the first time it happened my mind just started going BOING BOING BOING as i was walking, not in time with my steps just BOING BOING BOING irrespective of any outside stimuli. another voice at this point popped up and said "what the hell was that?" and then it stopped. the next time it involved a mild barnyard obscenity and an innocent chinese man; the other voice simply said "that wasn't very nice" and then it stopped again. so whatever it is, temporary dementia or just a ton of chemical cocktails playing havoc with my senses it seems to be under some sort of chaperone so like i said - no problem.
off topic-
can you believe this recent spitzer thing? what a disappointment. enough has been said and read about it you don't need my two cents...tho i saw this today on elizabeth and houston and thought that it summed it all up very nicely. dumb. ass. dammit! such promise tho, wasted.
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If I didn't know better I'd say you were pregnant. You have all the symptoms :)
Hope you feel better soon. - Elizabeth
I find great stomach relief from the baking soda and water antacid on the side of the baking soda box. Very simple and works for what the box aptly refers to as "sour stomach". Also, whenever you need some non-pill medicine, you're welcome to come hang out in my backyard and sit in the boiler chair in the sun. You can just sit quietly and drink ginger ale if you're feeling persnickity.
I have a whole box of baking soda. ~Mo
Dude, Spitzer was a megalomaniac who, tho Democratic (and automatically given so much benefit of the doubt in my book) realistically wasn't much better than Nixon.
Now, off to watch The Hills...
maybe your morphing into your sister with your anal streak...AH! THE HORROR! I know, I am trapped inside this body of anal-ness!
ahh you all are nice. i will try that antacid technique, mo, thanks for the offer. EE when are we gonna see pics of the shades? jules i hope i am not getting that anal... :)
That sounds absolutely lovely! So all the nude-ness is split sex? Do you pay a fee for whatever you want to do? I'm so glad you have found a haven!
by the way, how do you wear/see out of those white shades with all of the the little lines?!
your eyes are so close to the front you can see out of them reasonably well. they are good for the hot tub, since they do not fog up. yes, the naked time is split sex. unlike in finland!!!
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